Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Overly Anxious Mommy


So... It's 5:25 am. I've been up since 1:30 am. Now doubt this is the result of dozing off at 5 pm and sleeping until 11pm. My sleep schedule has been pretty wild since the day little Catie was born. I find myself constantly wanting to make sure she is okay.

Brian has finally convinced me that she will make noise if something is wrong. Point being...I don't need to watch her every minute. I don't know how well I'm really doing with that, since she's on the baby monitor right now as I write. Every few seconds, I glance at the monitor to make sure I see some flicker of movement. Hopefully, this anxious behavior will subside by the time my little darling enters school:)

I've been avoiding blogging because I don't have my pictures uploaded from my camera, yet. I don't have them uploaded yet because my daily life has been altered considerably. Everything I do revolves around little miss Catie Rose. I can go through an entire day without doing anything but Catie-related tasks. It's crazy. I realized how "selfish" I've been for so many years. I took for granted simple tasks like taking a shower. With a newborn around, I have realized the true meaning of caring for someone else.

For fear of writing anything more in my sleepy state, I will end this entry. I'm going to see if I can post a copy of my favorite hispital picture of Catie. As her mommmy, I think she looks beautiful in this picture. She looks so innocent and content with her new arrival into the world.

P.S. I'm so excited because my feet are returned to their normal size. I became so accustomed to looking at my tubby feet, I can barely recognize my old feet. They look emaciated. At some point, I might have to post before and after foot pics.

1 comment:

courtney c said...

I miss that little cutie so much!! Anxious or not, you are such a good mommy :) I'm so happy she's feeling better--and I hope you get a sleep schedule going soon! Love to all of you--four-leggeds included :)